... Dear Jesters ... It 'a bit' that I do not write on the blog, but now I really need ... I share with you what 'is happening to me ...
last night came after a meeting with you skipped two because of a transfer of employment between the nice Swiss cows (Which greet you ...). And I came back home, once again, a bit 'different from when I was out. With a charge of love in more '. Last night my heart beat with yours, in unison, said Bigne 'shared. The blood that runs through my veins was yours. Before sharing my heart beat so 'strong that it seemed to want to exit the chest (as before ... I am sharing all this effect ...).
Many, many things have changed since I discovered to be a Fool of God .. all my priority system 'is changing. For example, I was quite convinced of what 'I was doing in terms of employment. And now I find myself instead to ask me many questions ... Are no more ' sure of what 'I want. It 's weird,' cause if I'm here and 'only and only for the road work that I have chosen. But now I find myself having a great desire to deny that the way to do something more 'useful for me and for others, and to have more' time for me in the future and a family. They are terrified that the path I had chosen, as well as being very useful in terms of social impact, I lead my life away ... and so 'I see more and more' me away from the prospect of doing research, and more and more 'urgent rather the desire to do something more' social ... maybe focus on teaching, or maybe on a work on alternative energy, in other words something that I make you feel to do something for others, to provide my skills and my years of study to something that helps others ... These thoughts in the past I had already 'sealed violently on the head, but then I went on my way, through thick and thin,' cause I liked what I studied ... But since you know, I started to question everything again, I started listening to my I am more 'inner, more' undeclared ... one that believes deeply in my being a woman in my wanting to have time for the people I love, and therefore can not 'do not make me reflect on the future prospect of having a family ... and believe very much in it, and then to want to spend time and love ...
And as Providence, throughout my crisis, arrived yesterday on the words of Cele Drop that leaves its important work in the region for family reasons, his words about the courage of his choice. They came like a thunderbolt in my mind, 'cause the words "I do not want the career woman who does not even know his children" I echoed in my head for days ... And I know that what might seem trivial 'I write', but ... Well, I in his place would have done the same. In short, is emerging that part of me that I had to keep inside for so long 'cause the other (and me) were expecting great things from me. And if I should make a different choice now or in the future, I assure you that it would be easy to convince my family, after all I've done to be where I am today ... This obviously makes me a little 'fear. But I know that face as all the choices I faced so far. And they took me to see where those choices, I would not have gone wrong !!!!! ;)
However, guys, I will not bore you further. I wanted more 'than anything else thank you for letting me rediscover my values \u200b\u200bmore' intimate and give me a chance 'external. And I needed to share with you the positive and the crisis moment of growth that is coming out.
Besides the fact that, as I said yesterday, at the moment and I 'very difficult to think that there is a God who loves me with all his heart, and decided to make themselves known to me under form of a gift more 'beautiful, special and unique that a woman and a man can receive ...
Thank you, brothers. And with Drop & Cele ... you know why '.
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